The Homeland || Faith in Flux

My thoughts on Israel have been one of my biggest insecurities throughout this conversion journey. Even before the tragic events of recent months, I have held strong opinions about Israel’s statehood. I’ve worried that these views might distance me from full participation as a Jew. I’m not an expert on the longstanding issues in the Middle East, and I don’t believe anyone should expect me to be. From my limited historical understanding, the region has been fraught with conflict for millennia. However, the post-World War II displacement of innocent people to create a modern state is, to me, deeply troubling.

The issue of Israel’s statehood is complex and steeped in controversy. The establishment of a Jewish state after the horrors of the Holocaust is something I can empathize with. Yet, the means by which it was established—through the displacement of Palestinians who had lived there for generations—is where I take issue. While this land holds immense historical and spiritual significance for the Jewish people, it is equally important to others. Using that history as the sole justification for seizing the land disregards the lives and livelihoods of those who were already there.

Regardless of my personal opinions, the reality is that Israel exists, and the likelihood of reversing its establishment is slim to none. This isn’t a pro-Israel stance or an expression of complacency—it’s an acknowledgment of fact. Our global responsibility now is to ensure that Israel operates as an ethical state, one that treats its citizens and neighbors fairly. Unfortunately, based on its actions in recent years, I struggle to see that happening.

Israel and Palestine

Even before the tragic events of October 7, 2023, Israel’s treatment of Palestinians has raised serious ethical concerns. For decades, Israel has used disproportionate force against Palestinian communities, pushing people from their homes and into increasingly dire living conditions. While I believe that Israel, like any nation, has the right to defend itself, I also believe that many of its actions have gone beyond defense.

The October 7th attack by Hamas terrorists, which targeted innocent Israeli civilians, was nothing short of horrific. Israel had every right to retaliate to protect its citizens and attempt to recover hostages. However, what has followed feels less like measured retaliation and more like an unrestrained campaign of destruction. The civilian casualties in Gaza are staggering and difficult to justify as part of a defensive strategy.

Looking Ahead

Imagining a peaceful future for Israel and Palestine feels increasingly difficult. I once held hope for a two-state solution, a vision shared by many who sought an end to the conflict. Yet, Israel’s recent actions seem to have made this nearly impossible. Cynically, I can now envision a future where Palestinian presence is entirely erased—a modern parallel to the removal of Native Americans from their lands. It’s a comparison I’ve seen before, and it frightens me to think it could be unfolding before our very eyes.

Perhaps I’m wrong. Maybe a future exists where Palestinians can live freely within their own state. But even if that happens, the scars of how Israel came to be will remain. The memory of displacement and violence will linger, and I fear that this history will only perpetuate further cycles of conflict.

As I continue my conversion journey, I’m learning to sit with the discomfort of these complexities. My hope is to engage thoughtfully and ethically, holding space for multiple truths. While I may not have all the answers, I believe that wrestling with these questions is a necessary part of being in community and living out Jewish values.